#tw food restriction

[daieoteuagain]

다 괜찮을 거예요.

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i’ll try again.

[p3t1t-4gne4u]

finally at that point in my fast where i'm not hungry anymore so i'll probably go work out and do stuff until around 7:00 and then decide if i should have a little something, so far my blood sugar is really good though and i got through my first round of stretches better than normal even

[imjustafaerie]

if someone ever went through my phone, only thing i’d be hiding is tumblr and my th!nsp0 folder everything else is chillin 😭😭

[lilacheavenbby]

UGHHH I BROKE MY FAST AND ATE EVERYTHING IN MY LINE OF SIGHT LIKE 2500 CALORIES WORTH OF FOOD WHY AM I SO STUPID I HATE MYSELF

[ghosting-plural-userboxes]

thats.. 100% abuse, threatening to take away the most basic of needs from your child is like text book level abusive behaviour

yeeesh yeah,, our dad has never been abusive like that before so it was kinda a “Oh shit wtf ig we upgraded from calling us a pig to starving us,, wow,,,”/nav

[dontthinkorjudge]

act of intention: day twenty-three

trigger warning: this post contains discussions of food restriction and mentions of boredom eating, irregular eating, and unhealthy eating in general

today i challenged myself with my diet; my meal times aren't regulated at all, and do a lot of boredom snacking on junk, so i want to get my diet in order so i have more energy for work and school coming up.

today's challenge was as simple as it was sporadic: i decided not to add any salt to the food i ate today, and i stuck to it! i let myself enjoy the original flavours instead of drowning them in extra blood pressure, which helped me not only form a healthier habit, but expand my palette to include slightly more nuanced flavours.

[sacrificialmaiid]

A sugar-dipped starter for @dimitresca

The problem is that Milena knows she shouldn’t do it. She knows that she shouldn’t, but sometimes the temptation is just too great.

Since the beginning of their more intimate relationship, the Lady Dimitrescu has been careful to keep her on a very specifically tailored diet. She is to eat iron-rich foods to ensure that the font of blood pumping around her body is kept healthy and plentiful. Her cholesterol is kept low, as is her blood sugar, because the Lady prefers her blood as clean as possible.

Of course, in her time as the Lady’s favourite, she has also been introduced to the mind-blowing world that is fine dining. There are flavours and textures to be sampled the like of which she never even could have dreamed. They render the plain, dense little cakes she had been treated to only at birthdays and weddings in the village utterly vile.

Here, she is treated to cuts of lean meat that melt in her tongue. Slithers of cheese tart enough to pair with the sweetness of grapes. Bread freshly baked and paired with everything that she could ever fantasise. But most of all, Milena has found that she’s taken a liking to sweets. Sometimes, the Lady has chocolates imported from France and Italy and Belgium and she carefully presses them between her little pet’s lips piece by piece, carefully measured. There are creams and meringues and fluffy cakes and candied fruits and she delights over all of them. Finally, her body has started to flesh out a little and recover from a lifetime of being left in need.

The problem is, of course, that she is instructed to have all things in moderation. This is much more difficult when one has been deprived their entire life, only to have excess dangled in front of them.

The worst culprit? The Duke. The merchant peddles temptation the way that he does the rest of his wares, and always he brings her parfaits and treats, egging her on to have just a bite. And Milena, ever the people pleaser (and not exactly difficult to persuade) is always quick to humour him. She giggles and tells him that he’ll get her into trouble. He waves away her protests and tells her that life is to be savoured.

The issue comes later, when she is under the scrutiny of the Countess’ golden gaze, and she becomes convinced that her mistress can smell the sugar on her… or at the very least, the disobedience.

She ducks down in her cosy spot in the armchair by the fire and hides her face behind her embroidery.

[svnflowermoon]

GUYS GUYS GUYS IM 2 MONTHS CLEAN SELF HARM AND 1 MONTH CLEAN FOOD RESTRICTING OMG

[acemdzsfan]

Do you have to constantly avoid people when eating, because you feel threatened/frightened of the consequences of how much/quickly you eat, or is that just me? 🙃

don't eat enough or quickly enough? No food for the night

eat too quickly? Or more than usual? Oh! You're gonna get fat.

don't want to finish something because of sensory issues? Too bad you get spanked until you eat it.

[blue-banditt]

TW food?? Restricting? Idk..be safe

So like I said I've been restricting food. And it's weird bc I also have like,, actual knowledge ab restrict/binge cycles so I'm taking preventative measures by allowing myself to eat what I want just in smaller amounts. I'm telling myself it's healthier to be conscious of how much I'm eating .. despite the fact that I'm at a healthy weight and eat a normal amount and am not sedentary.

Idk if id call it obsessive so i don't think it's at the ED level. I'm just like estimating calories n shit. And not letting myself go past a certain number. I'm not gonna say it ik numbers are triggering to people. But it's not an UNHEALTHY number,, just maybe less than what would be considered healthy. But Idk man maybe this is the beginning to a slippery slope that I could fall way too deep into.

but like I said I feel like it's not inherently unhealthy?? but maybe it is bc there's a little tiny voice at the back of my head that's saying I'll look more masculine if Im skinnier. But ik it's lies.. but do I???

[rhythm-catsandwine]

Vent about a not-fun situation, that one would think I could fix but can't for reasons...... partly due to trauma response. But other parts NOT!

I will delet later.

Soooo a few followers/mutuals know most of my life situations and absolute hell that I have endured.

I live with my two youngest cousins. And the youngest cousin's gf. We live in a house owned by my aunt and uncle. Three of us pay rent. The third does not for a few reasons. Even though she could.

She has groups of friends over often. There are only two bathrooms. One with a good shower and one with a shity one. The good one is shared by me and one cousin and her. She has at least 4 people over for parts. she is oddly protective or something about her friends being over. She moved in because of a abusive situation. So Idk if she was able to do stuff like this. So I understand if that is the case.

They are friendly and have never said that they wanted me to leave or said anything els along those lines. But I pick up on energies and vibes. It feels like I'm intruding or taking up space. But that's part due to trauma. But also not...because of the energies that I cant really figure out except part is the intruding but other is something I don't know. IF that makes sense.

But here is the deal...They are usually in our bathroom. I get that they do hair stuff like coloring each others hair or something of those lines. I get there are at least 5 people for that bathroom. But they are almost always in there or one of them is. I get with drinking and stuff that's going to happen. But I have been walking most of the day and doing other stuff outside . I have to keep sunscreen on cus of my meds and risk of skin cancer. I hadn't taken a shower yet. I was able to get a couple washcloths and clean up for the most part. But I do want a shower. Worst comes to it I can put towles down to sleep in bed. I could shower in the other bathroom but I'm really not supposed to.

I have also not eaten much today. Only 1000 calories. I eat mostly meat for my RA. Only problem is one of the friends is vegan. They are triggered by some smells and sights of meat. So I can't warm my stuff in the microwave. All I can eat is a few protein bars or make a protein shake in a shaker bottle. I don't have money to go eat somewhere....even just a rotisserie chicken, and I can not eat lunch meat. IDK if these people are spending the night or not. And it's too awkward to ask.

I will be fine. I know how to survive in situations like this. But it fucking sucks!

[daieoteuagain]

내일은 더 강해지기를. ☁️

it’s a new month, if you need a friend i’m here!

i should try harder this month. ~

[peachy-panic]

Okay jaime same question (if you’re still doing these)

Jaime: would you prefer to be guaranteed to stay with Sebastian indefinitely but he hurts you once or month, or you don’t know where your contract goes next but you are guaranteed Sebastian never hurts you

(Answered about a month into their contract)

It’s a much quicker answer on Jaime’s end, even if he doesn’t seem entirely comfortable with it.

“I’d stay with Sebastian. Please. I know he wouldn’t— I don’t think he would enjoy hurting me. And he would go easier on me than anyone else would. He’s… Sebastian is the only Keeper who hasn’t made me have sex, with him or anyone else. He doesn’t withhold food or punish me. He treats me like I’m a person. I know I’m never going to get that from anyone else.”

[thesiblingsoftheblackandwhite]

There are better techniques for discipline. You're humans now, with human brains. You're affected by the trappings of human psychology. Using food as discipline is extremely unhealthy for people's psyche, and could make Wiggly's mental state worse. He's hanging in by a thread right now. All of you are.

- 🐽

Well, I had nothing else, alright? Either he learns to be quiet or one of us makes him.

[lilacheavenbby]

I just broke my fast and in less than 10 minutes I managed to eat over 500 calories wtf is wrong with me

[fairiencarnate]

Hey is it okay if you share more about your sugar free diet? I have a sweet tooth but I'm trying to cut out/lower my sugar intake due to all-but-one of my family having diabetes (I'm the one. For now). I've never tried any kind of diet before so I'm not sure what to expect. If you're not comfortable sharing then don't worry, you can discard this message :)

Sure! So firstly, I'm not going to be one of those people who never consumes sugar, like I don't care if there are small amounts in a sauce or glaze or whatever. I also ideally want to be able to have the occasional treat for special occasions. I kinda try to follow a diabetic lifestyle preemptively, as PCOS puts me at high risk for developing diabetes and my maternal grandparents both have it.

Basically I won't buy anything like candy, cakes, biscuits, etc. If sugar is the whole point of eating a certain food, that food is a no-no. Fruit is the exception, and even then it's a treat and must be whole fruit so I get all the nutrients & fibre - no juice!

Consume plenty of proteins & healthy fats during meals (and snacks if you can)! I'm vegetarian so this has been a challenge, but I've found veggies that work. Stuff like broccoli, cauliflower, spinach, bok choy, green beans, capsicum, avocado, asparagus, zucchini, olives. Fruits with lower sugar content include strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, kiwifruit, oranges, peaches, watermelon, cantaloupe. Nuts and seeds are also great! I still eat carbs like rice, tortillas, occasional chips, etc but the heavier I rely on them, the more likely I'll get sugar cravings, personally. Since it all breaks down to sugar anyway.

Explore your local sugar free options! Unfortunately most sugar free candies are absolute crap imo, but there are treasures hiding among the trash. I don't know where you live but in NZ there's this choc ice cream (Zilch) I love that uses sugar alcohols instead of sugar, which have no effect on blood sugar or insulin levels. Just have to be careful how much you eat tho cause too much sugar alcohol can give you mad toots and tummy issues 😭 There are bound to be options near you that are worth exploring, you just need to be willing to sort through several things before you find something that isn't gross.

I hope this helped at all! I know lowering your sugar intake can be daunting, especially since it's a very real physical dependency for some. Do be prepared for potential withdrawal symptoms if that applies to you. Everyone says they get headaches when coming off sugar, but I didn't lol I got digestive issues for a few weeks. Mood swings too. Its different for everybody! But any issues from reducing sugar are manageable and they are only temporary! I personally felt tons better both physically and mentally than I ever did before once I got past them. You can do this 🌸🌷